“The only reason I have any hope is if I can get away with it,” says Paul.
“I don’t want to be in a situation where my life sucks.
I want to win.”
Paul was introduced to online gambling by his mother, who had been diagnosed with cancer, and by her husband.
He eventually started playing poker, but he said that he felt like it was a risky, addictive game.
“When you get a chance to gamble, you do it because you think you’re going to win,” he says.
“If you lose, you’re angry.
You’re not thinking about what you’ve done wrong.”
“I got really sick of it,” Paul says.
He spent his last six months of his life in the hospital and spent weeks recovering.
“It was an awful thing to watch my wife die.
I was scared for her,” he explains.
He still had to watch his wife die, but with online gambling, he didn’t have to worry about that anymore.
“You’re gambling on your own.
It’s a way to make your life better.
It doesn’t matter how big you are, how good your brain is, or how much money you have, you can just go to a website and win a million dollars,” Paul explains.
“With the way it works, it’s a lot more fun.”
Paul has been spending the last few months at a home in Nevada, but says he plans to spend a lot of time back in the States.
“There are a lot better ways to spend your time than in a hospital bed,” he tells Politico.
“But at least I have a roof over my head.”
His daughter, who lives with her parents, says she has no regrets about her decision to quit.
“My dad’s not in there anymore, so we’re not going to have to deal with him,” she says.
But Paul says his addiction has also affected his family.
“They have a different life now because of me.
And it sucks that I’m doing that to them.”